my new girl =)

yeap thats rite..miss colbie caillat, such a young beauty with a sweet voice =). just enjoying her songs, its just so super nice, relaxing, catchy and simply lovely..i'm gonna get her albumn soon i dun care..currently loving "oxygen", "the little things", "midnight bottle" and of course, "realize".

brushing up familiar strings

that day i pulled out the case, wiped the dust and took out for the first time in about 3 months..my dearest violin. Yes i don't know why i did that, guess it was just a feeling of holding it again and playing it. So i tuned it, put on the shoulder rest, wiped rosin on my bow (its the stick btw). Stood up and started playing freely.

After playing a few tuneless notes, i searched for some old files for dusty scores that i was once able to play. So after flipping through page after page and stopping every now and then, i realized i've badly touch. Yea i felt like a dumb dumb, so i think i'm gonna change that dumb feeling. I think i'm gonna start playing again, i mean why waste God given talents? its like planting gold in the backyard.

oh well..heres the instrument




just remember that you yourselves are instruments to God. Play your best, let Him use you, go where He wants you to go for His thoughts are greater than ours, His understanding is vast beyond what we can imagine =)

A Poem for the Emos

for me they come and go
just like leaves of Autumn
snapped with a twitch of a finger
goes as the wind blows
slowly swaying, they fall to the bottom
never again to see them ever

and i wait, keep waiting
for a fresh leaf that never yellows
for fulfillment never felt
for attributes of a marvelous painting
for satisfaction so shallow
for my heart to ever melt

but they come and go
just like seasons flow
not another word, not another smile
all will fail, quick or slow
but someone i know
will ever go the extra mile =)

You, You never let me down
You never let me go
You cling on to me that i feel so wanted
You hate to see me frown
But its so for me to grow
o Jesus, to know true love freely granted

so to all emo people, God loves you no matter what. I know theres still an emptiness inside, i feel it too. An emptiness only someone in flesh can fill? I thought about that. But i tend to think that i haven't discovered His true love yet, His overwhelming love, the fullness of His love which could drain the oceans with ink dry and fill the skies with writings just to proclaim His love. i want to go on this adventure. It'll be a neverending story, full of surprises. Care to join me? Anyway..

happy belated valentines people! =)

although i couldn't stand it, i got over it, hooray!! cheers..

the story of the nose hair

that day as i was reading the Bible waiting for a verse to jump out and slap me, i came across Colossians 2:6-7

so then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in Him, rooted and built up in Him, strengthened in the faith you were taught, and overflowing with thanksfulness

Colossians 2:6-7 (NIV)

hmm..being rooted and built up, to live IN Christ, strengthened in the faith, overflowing with thankfulness. well as i was meditating on this verses, i got bored and started messing with my nose. then i started pulling out my nostril hair..hahaha yea its gross but continue to read. so i realised that if you pull it out, you'll feel pain.

so then it came to me, if we are the hair, God is the nose then the finger must be temptation. we get pulled out by temptation into sin because we let go, we are not rooted firmly in Christ, in God. when we get pulled by temptation into sin, we make a choice to hurt God, we break His heart. just like whenever you pull nostril hair your nose feels pain, so God feels pain whenever you let temptation pull you into doing something He hates so much, sin. thats how this verse spoke to me. whenever you get pulled by temptation into sin, its not over. our God is a loving God that is so..loving..He will forgive if we confess our sins and repent. amazing love =). but don't use this freedom as a credit card. dear readers, please read Galatians 5:13

anyway it also speak of being rooted in Christ and not letting any hollow and deceptive philosophy which depends on human tradition and basic principles of this world take you captive which is stated in the next verse..Colossians 2:8 which is related to Ephesians 4:14

so here ends the mystery of the nostril hair. hope this verse will touch you one way or another =)

ku tengah elak mereka

yup..i'm seriously missing you guys, room 10. i'm so gonna miss the fun times we had together, all the sharing, and the farting..haha..well, here they are

from left : ben yue, me, khai jye(this is what i get almost every other morning)
from left : me, khai jye and his big toe XD, ben yue
besides them, i'm also missing my mission team, team GLASGOW!!. well seriously, i don't think i'll work together better with any other group than this group =). thanks for everything guys, will always keep you guys in my prayers.
top left : evelyn, jason chin, ben, me, jason chiew
bottom left : ei leen, mun foong

last but not least, i'll miss all of you at rbs!! thanks for making it a fun learning experience for me. thanks for teaching me so many things through your sharings and ...your acts of stupidity at times

back!

yea i know this post is a little late..well its been about 5 days since i returned from RBS(residential bible school) where i spent my last 5 weeks and 2 days. 4 weeks in HCC, Camerons and the rest in our mission places and PJGH. Overall it was a truly great experience for me. Not only did i meet new friends and fellow lamers, fellow emo-ers. Hahah, but i also mended the relationship between me and God. All this while He was right beside me in times of joy and sadness. Sadly we only tend to come to Him when theres no other resort. RBS made me respond fully to His stubborn love. And now i want to serve Him wholeheartedly in everything i do as if i was doing it for Christ not men, Ephesians 6:7. Yes, wholeheartedly. Its not gonna be easy but i will be guided from above. He's changing me little by little everyday.

STUBBORN LOVE

caught again, your faithless friend
don't you ever tire of hearing
What a fool I've been
guess I should pray what can I say
Oh, it hurts to know the hundred times I've caused you pain
'Forgive me' sounds so empty
when I never change
Yet you stay and say 'i love you still' forgiving me time and time again

Chorus:
It's your stubborn love
that never lets go of me
I don't understand how you can stay
Perfect love, embracing the worst in me
How I long for your stubborn love

Funny me, just couldn't see, even long before I knew you, you were loving me
Sometimes I cry, you must cry too,
when you see the broken promises
I made to you, I keep saying that I'll tryst you, though I seldom do,
yet you stay and say you love me still
knowing someday I'll be like you

(Chorus)

It's your stubborn love that never lets go of me
I don't understand how you stay
Perfect love, embracing the worst in me
and you'll never let me go
I believe I finally know,
I can't live without, your stubborn love.


funny how this song almost made me cry. It was like this song was written from my heart to be sung by my soul to God. This song touched me a lot and i hope it touches you too..